Daily Blessing, 4 Heshvan 5781/22 October 2020

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Write! Write! Write! by Ivy Rivera

For two years God has been transforming my mind to become a writer.  Never in my wildest dreams I ever thought I would be a writer but there was God saying… write.

What I did not realize is that within the two years, 2017-2019, God was creating in me…the identity, I am a writer.  Let me tell you how it started.

I am chick flick kind a girl.  I love watching movies where the guy gets the girl and so I started watching the Hallmark channel.  As I started watching movies every Saturday through this channel, I started seeing a theme; I noticed that every movie I saw, it was a woman who was a writer and she had a writer’s block and she went away to get inspired and start writing.  So, the writing portion in the movie is what kept on speaking to me.  Of course, I surely didn’t mind watching these types of movies right…the girl gets the guy in the end, chick flick remember!!!  Before I knew it, I would look forward to every Saturday evening sitting on the couch and watch these romantic movies and at the same time unknowingly, behind the scene, what God was doing to me….embedding the dream, that I would be a writer!  I could not believe it, I kid you not, every Saturday, there was a romantic movie going on and it was always a gal going somewhere to get inspired to start writing again!  The word writer kept on being highlighted to me in my mind but most importantly…in my heart.

As I started seeing the theme becoming stronger and stronger in me, I started asking God, Why me God?  Why do you want me to write?  What do I have to offer for one, and second, what?? me!? I don’t know anything about writing, really God really!  I remember that day, it was at night and raining and I was just ending a fast. I heard God say clear as day, you are Luke 4:18.  I will pour out my supernatural healing through you to all my children who feel lost, who are going through pain, who feel oppressed, who feel unloved, who feel alone, who believe there is no one out there that cares for them.  You are my vessel to heal my people, through your writing they will see hope, they will see light, they will see love, through you, I will heal them!  OMG! I became undone, I was wrecked!  Within me, I felt God’s heart, I felt the passion, I felt His Fire and so I started to cry so hard.  I mean, really crying and screaming but I had to do this more through groaning silently because I was outside on the patio deck and I knew the nosy neighbors might come out!  I had to feel this massive yearning within me!!!  Ok, here is the scripture Luke 4:18-19. “The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.” Can you see the magnitude of God’s belief in me to do this?? I mean sure God, I will be able to do this, no problem. Ha!!  This is why God had me so undone; when He spoke over me and said this to me, what God did at that very moment is align His truth of who I am in Him.  I felt the fire coming down on me and I felt like my mind and heart was on fire.  I did not want to just cry and scream, I wanted to drop on the floor because the weight of His Glory that was pouring out in me.  All I know is that He helped me stayed compose for the sake of the neighbors out there because if not, the police would have come to hear all the commotion!! After this moment, I knew that “Someday” I would become a writer because now, I needed God to show me just how exactly this would look like because I do not have slightest idea how to start doing this.  I had some specks of understanding that it had to do with my own personal journey and how he has healed my heart and broken ness. But still, all this is new territory to me and of course, other questions popped out! What will my family think of this? What will my friends think of this? What will my life look like now that I know this?  All these questions began to overwhelm me. OMG!!!!!!

A few months later I attended a conference in a church in Santa Clarita, CA where I was a prayer usher for those who would like to receive prayer.  As I was on the back listening to the message from the Pastor, he started saying that God had asked him to be a writer.  Right away, my eyes became wide open and I said to God, are you trying to tell me something here?  As the Pastor finished his story, I felt God’s prompting and heard Him say, go to the pastor and have him pray over you for his blessing. Let him impart on you his Faith!  The pastor was always surrounded by people and I was like, how am I going to do this?  So instead, I turned it to God, I told him, if you want the pastor to pray a blessing over me, you need to open space window that for sure I will see because from the looks of this, it’s not going to happen….and God did.  God was like oh yeah, boom, here you go!  The pastor was right in front of me and no one was around him.  I told God, okay okay, I see it.  At that moment, I went up to the pastor and told him my testimony that God wanted me to be a writer even though, I had no clue how in the world to do this or become this.  The pastor looked at me and laughed!  Like saying, I know this all too well!  He just started praying a blessing for me and I felt the Holy Spirit’s presence and a lot of warmth coming over me! 

Now, I am in a place where I know I am a writer, but still feel lost because I can’t begin to fathom what this world looks like because I am just a regular woman.  My thought has always been, I will work in my profession, get married, have a house, and be involved in ministry for God. I did not know that being a writer would become a dream.  God ignited a dream in me that never in my life, would I have imagined that Ivy (me) could reach this dream.  This is all new to me, but I am welcoming it, I am embracing it, I am believing it, I am accepting and I am fulfilling it.  So here I go.  Let’s go!!!!  I know that in time and as I begin to write, God will show me, God will lead me, God will align the right connections, and God will not fail me; all I have to do is believe and Write, Write, Write-God will do the rest!!!

Can’t wait for this adventure to take off and see what God will do with this dream. The adventures with God, by author, Ivy Rivera!  Woo hoo!  Okay maybe God will change the title but for now, this is what I have!